"Fat acceptance"...

I just finished reading an article on fat acceptance. The article was broken down in four parts, the author identifies herself as fat at a young age, she struggles with her weight into her twenties, she discovers the concept of fat acceptance, she jumps on thus band wagon and carries on to smacking her behind at a group of rude teenagers to prove her empowerment.

As an obese young woman I am supposed to read this and feel that I too am worthy of loving my extra pounds. After reading this article I am supposed to realize that the only reason I have ever wanted to lose weight was to fit in and that the media has brainwashed me.

But after reading this article all I felt was saddened, yet another excuse for someone to drive themselves to an early death. Yes losing wait is hard, but why commit to staying fat?

I suppose its all a question of health; If this author is healthy, well then besides her immaturity more power to her. But to lead her readers that could be any size with any kind of health to believe that their size is to be embraced and even loved is what has saddened me.

I feel that all overweight individuals need to ask themselves these two questions:

1.)Am I comfortable in my own skin?

2.)Can my health benefit significantly from weight loss?

Once the overweight individual answers these questions with no biases and from the heart they can move on to a happier more self assured life from there.

The struggle with weight loss is always a long and painful journey but is continuously rewarding, with every pound you lose, with every dress size you drop and with every ounce of sweat that comes dripping off of your exhausted body; you feel a bit closer to portraying the lively being you know you are, to doing the things you want to do, to steering clear of several life ruining health issues, to finally feeling secure and happy in your own skin.

The article I read tonight was interesting but nothing is going to change my mind about getting into my dream pants and being eligible for bungee jumping.

^__^

(currently listening to Legends of Archery by Driftless Pony Club)

The article: http://blog.twowholecakes.com/2011/07/reprint-why-the-world-needs-fat-acceptance/

Dont read this.

So life seems to have tumbled out of my reach, time to focus on my physic rather than my job and studies, considering I now have neither. ?

All I want to do is have something really delicious to eat with a big soda and call it a night in front of my computer, but alas what is the point? There seems to be no point in eating, or not eating, breathing or not breathing.. if it makes no effect on the world then what does it matter?

feeling like I'm back in my adolescence years..

listening to where'd you go by fort minor.

Day 1 !! LEGIT!

Alright,

since I can't seem to get into the groove of weight loss without a bonus incentive, I have added one.

well two, Competition with none other than my mother & a sweet reward!

The reward for me if I loss 25lbs in a month is an all day hang out with my mom in a shopping spree kind of way, with sephora included. If I lose I have to pay for my moms pedicure & facial at the spa of her choosing. D=

But no worries I am going to win!

I'm getting my bike tonight! woot woot woot! & did I say woot yet?!

I'm excited! I've wanted a bike for quite a while.

So Real Legit Day One has begun!

weigh in is on july 22cnd! eeep!

Who believes I can muster up the will power?..

just my friend denise I think, I'm just trying to stay optimistic.

(Currently listening to Vcr by the xx)

Veronica Pickles legit Day 1!

Oh man...

Doing this everyday hasn't worked out, I guess I may not be dedicated enough. I did however start up again, this morning I am having cream of wheat and plan to not eat much besides carrots apples and celery for the rest of the day.

Trying to manipulate my meals in to something that they have never been is a very tough challenge. I still live in a house full of people who eat what and as much as they want whenever they want, I feel I need to get out to really have a handle on my diet.

Look at it this way, how long can you hold heroine under a heroine addicts nose after they quit before they grab it from you and do it again?

It's unrealistic to say that my will power should be strong enough to stay clean, I mean on a diet, when everyone around me is doing the thing that I'm trying to quit.

Excuse or reality? I'll let you be the judge..

But for now I'm trying.. once again.

(currently listening to the increasingly loud me in my head that wants to be fed)

Veronica Pickles take 2 day 1

What day is this?..

Oh right Wednesday.. the dreaded Wednesday.

It is 9:02am on 3/23/2011 & what am I doing? As a twenty year old college student?

I am between classes on my laptop sitting in the sun blogging and watching hey Arnold on my netflix. Yup I've had 2 cups of coffee today one of which was a caramel macchiato from Starbucks. my favorite.

Today is an important day, Today I get to interview journalist/best selling author Dina Temple Raston; I'm excited! Today I start the GNC meal replacement shakes, trying to avoid food as much as possible, one real meal a day. I know that's not what the GNC guidelines say but who really diets with out harming their selves at least a little? How else do we intend on getting any results?

Not say I'm going to this forever to lose the weight, I'll go back to healthy means after the wedding.

I go look at my maid of honor dress tomorrow, I am so nervous I think I must be a 24 by now, granted the pant's I am wearing right are 20's and there a little lose, I'm pretty sure these are an exception.

2 cups of coffee and I'm still tired. yugs..

Besides the interrogation & 2 classes today I also have work from 3-10, All I want to do right now is take a nap, is that because I'm malnourished? I doubt it.

Today I must be optimistic! that is the goal.!

(Currently listening to chop suey by system of a down)

Veronica Pickles Day unknown

DAY 9 08:29 PM

Currently listening to cake's commissioning a symphony in c & the shins young pilgrims

Day 7

(Currently listening to long distance call by phoenix)