Between the baby shower yesterday & work today I didn't make time to post anything;but here I am now. =D
Baby shower went off with out a hitch (thx for asking) & the temptation to eat was a lot easier to ignore than I thought it was going to be.
Although I did have a piece of the delicious Bavarian creme cake that caused me so much headache, I think it was more to reap the reward of all my hard work than it was a desire for cake. But then again you know what they say about fat kids and cake. ;)
So that day (Sunday day 3) I snacked on the veggie tray, no dip & had an average cut of the sub which is a square no bigger than an inch & a half diagonally. sticking to water was easy because running around like a chicken with it's head cut off leads to the craving for plain ol' h2o.
Today I had a country fried steak at Denny's and no it was not worth it, I came home and jogged immediately after. Maybe I'm starting to actually let my diet sink in enough to add to my morals. I felt actual guilt after it even during it.But when you're with people what do you do? salad? plain? In my family they'll think something is wrong! So that really adds to how difficult all of this is.
I'm stuck in a situation where everyone is rooting against me, and it's not because their mean but because they don't see the point in a diet. The philosophy that is pretty consistent in my family is that you only live once & you could die tomorrow so eat what you want, do what you want, forgive, & most importantly spend because you can't take it with you. Thus the majority of my family members are always low on funds, chubby and happy even though most of them have heart conditions.
Even I have high blood pressure & thyroid issues.. did I mention I'm 20 and the guidance my mother gave me on life was all wrong? Thank you internet; without you I would still think that baby's came from storks and rice with tons of butter was good for you. Yup as a mentor my mother has failed,but when I was 14 I started talking to the couch for comfort, I'd come home and tell the empty sofa how my day was and all that was wrong in the empty house before I started on cleaning & dinner. Without that couch & KoRn I don't think I would have made it through my adolescence.
So it is now 2:13am (because I got interrupted by a friend of mine who came over ranting and had to listen.[i'm glad i made it "better"]) and I am ready for sleep, have to be up at 5 for readying & driving 20miles to & from my mom's work.But it's spring break! so instead of class I am getting kidnapped by an old friend who demands seniority. "I get first dibs on your free time, I was here first" So that ought to be interesting. RIGHT, GOAL for today is to fit in my 3 walks while keeping my calorie intake under 1230.
Wish me luck!
(Currently listening to Swimming in the flood by Passion Pit)
Veronica Pickles DAY 4
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